deep thoughts and a wake up call
by Yingying
i got B3 along with many others that i know. at first i thought i did well, but i think throughly when i went home. i sucked, the results sucked even as i study real hard for it. the A have slipped between my hands. i know i could have get a distinction instead of a merit for my oral and listening. IF ONLY...
did some crying, i felt that i let my parents down, partly because of other reasons pior to this. i know crying over spilt milk is not going to solve anything. but as i thought about so much hope was pinned on me, together with expectations i want for myself, i can't stop crying. no matter how i try to console myself giving myself reasons not to be upset, i could not stop tearing over this shit. i can't think positive now.
time have to be wasted to built up what i have already forgotten. i have not touch chinese for a long time, it seemed more unfamiliar to me now. i know that time and money will be wasted, money is secondary. as for time, i must learn now to organise and excercise more control over myself. i don't want to be like last time where i don't study because i know that i'm not that intelligent, the only way is to study to work hard. think about my future, i want to do well. so i'm going to retake my chinese again and hoped that i'll score better. ughh, this is the first time i study so hard for a national examination. wo bu gan xin!
o yah, singapore education suk because i hate seeing people crying over results and now i am suffering the fate as them. maybe i've regretted. i still hate people crying over results now still. cause it is like serve you right, you did not put in enough effort, so you get this result so STOP CRYING OVER THIS SPLIT MILK! thats right, stop crying and now buck up!
o yah, getting a B3 made me lose all my appetitte. food doese not seemed as much as appealing as before. i guess getting a B3 is like giving a slap on my face to wake up. o levels is near so near. prelim is already here! time should not go to waste. i must do my best. i will perform and score well! i don't want to cry like this ever again next year. i want to cry with joy with all others who have worked that hard to come that far. TIME WILL TELL.
10:35 PM |
Friday, August 12
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